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Trinity Sunday / Music Monday


The journey of Ordinary Time has kicked off!

The 1st Sunday after Pentecost / The 1st Sunday of Ordinary Time is Trinity Sunday!
Maybe you spent some time talking about that in your church on Sunday, maybe not. We’ll be spending the week in the Ordinary Time book pondering the Trinity and you can also follow along on the Ordinary Time Web Guide with a bit of that conversation.

But as I do from time to time on this blog, I shared some tunes today over on the web guide.
Thought I would share them here as well.

trinity_sessionsWell today is a music Monday!
And to make it even more awesome, the music is FREE!

If you aren’t familiar with Noisetrade, now you are and you’re welcome! It’s a site of legally free music! You can tip the band for their tunes (which is always nice to do) but really all they ask is that you spread the word. Pretty easy!

The Verses Project has a few pretty good albums out and one of them happens to be devoted to verses (Bible verses that is) that are Trinitarian in nature.

The Trinity Sessions


So enjoy!



In The Name Of Jesus: Reflection of Christian Leadership


IMG_0659I recently picked up Henri Nouwen’s book In The Name Of Jesus; Reflection of Christian Leadership. I’ve been reading and dialoging over another leadership book with some folks at church and this book came to my mind. It’s a very different angle on leadership and is structured largely around Jesus and his temptations in the desert that took place right before he stepped into his earthly ministry / leadership role. The thought is that if Jesus faced these temptations as he was getting ready to lead so will we.

Here are the temptations as Nouwen sees them and the corresponding discipline for said temptation…

* The temptation to be relevant // the discipline of contemplative prayer
* The temptation to be spectacular // the discipline of confession and forgiveness
* The temptation to be powerful // the discipline of theological reflection

I think these temptations in Christian leadership, really any kind of leadership, are spot on! I’m have see then, experienced other leaders who have given into them and have struggle with them myself.

Nouwen provides great thoughts and challenges as he reflects on Jesus’ life and his own life. He largely draws from his experience as a priest living with and serving alongside folks who are mentally handicapped in his community L’Arche .

For me, this book raises some extremely helpful questions and challenges some very common notions that are prominent for myself and for anyone in leadership but are questions and challenges that I think every Christian leader will be better for having engaged.

Here are just a few quotes and thoughts.
Really I wanted to record these quotes for myself, as reminders and recurring challenges to the ever present temptations I will face as a leader in the modern day church. Since I was typing up some of my favorites I thought I would share here as well.


“I asked myself, ‘What decisions have you been making lately and how are they a refection of the way you sense the future?’ Somehow I have to trust that God is at work in me and that the way I am being moved to new inner and outer places is part of a larger movement of which i am only a very small part.”
— Intro, p.9

(personally for me that is HUGE these days and I really want to live into this and believe it deep in my bones! But it’s hard, right?!?!)

“I am deeply convinced that the Christian leader of the future is called to be completely irrelevant and to stand in this world with nothing to offer but his or her own vulnerable self. That is the way Jesus came to reveal God’s love. The great message that we have to carry, as ministers of God’s word and followers of Jesus, is that God loves us not because of what we do or accomplish, but because God has created and redeemed us in love and has chosen us to proclaim that love as the true source of human life.”
— From Relevance to Prayer, p.17

“The leader of the future will be the one who dares to claim his irrelevance in the contemporary world as a divine vocation that allows him or her to enter into a deep solidarity with the anguish underlying all the glitter of success and to bring the light of Jesus there.”
— From Relevance to Prayer, p.22

“The question is not: how many people take you seriously? How much are you going to accomplish? How can you show some results? But: Are you in love with Jesus? Perhaps another way of putting the question would be: Do you know the incarnate God? In our world of loneliness and despair, there is an enormous need for men and women who know the heart of God, a heart that forgives, that cares, that reaches out and wants to heal. In that heart there is no suspicion, no vindictiveness, no resentment, and not a tinge of hatred. It is a heart that wants only to give love and receive love in response.”
— From Relevance to Prayer, p.24
(As like most of these quotes I could keep going. This is a really great little chance though!)

“Through contemplative prayer we can keep ourselves from being pulled from one urgent issue to another and from becoming strangers to our own and God’s heart. Contemplative prayer keeps us home, rooted and safe, even when we are on the road, moving from place to place, and often surrounded by sounds of violence and war. Contemplative prayer deepens in us the knowledge that we are already free, that we have already found a place to dwell, that we already belong to God, even though everything and everyone around us keeps suggesting the opposite.”
— From Relevance to Prayer, p.29

“I have found over and over again how hard it is to be truly faithful to Jesus when I am alone. I need my brothers and sisters to pray with me, to speak with me about the spiritual task at hand, and to challenge me to stay pure in mind, heart, and body.”
— From Popularity to Ministry, p.41

“Somehow we have come to believe that good leadership requires a safe distance from those we are called to lead.”
— From Popularity to Ministry, p.43

“Medicine, psychiatry, and social work all offer us models in which “service”takes place in a one-way direction. Someone serves, someone else is being served, and be sure not to mix up the roles! But how can anyone lay down his life for those which whom he is not even allowed to enter into a deep personal relationship? Laying down your life means making your own faith and doubt, hope and despair, joy and sadness, courage and fear available to other as ways of getting in touch with the Lord of Life.
We are not healers, we are not the reconcilers, we are not the givers of life. We are sinful broken, vulnerable people who need as much care as anyone we care for. The mystery of ministry is that we have been chosen to make our own limited and very conditional love the gateway for the unlimited and unconditional love of God. Therefore, true ministry must be mutual.”
— From Popularity to Ministry, p.43-44

“The leadership about which Jesus speaks is of a radically different kind from the leadership offered by the world. It is a servant leadership, in which the leader is a vulnerable servant who need the people as much as they need him or her.”
From this it is clear that a whole new type of leadership is asked for in the Church of tomorrow, a leadership which is not modeled on the power games of the world, but on the servant-leader, Jesus, who came to give his life for the salvation of many.”
— From Popularity to Ministry, p.44-45

“When ministers and priests live their ministry mostly in their heads and relate to the Gospel as a set of valuable ideas to be announced, the body quickly takes revenge by screaming loudly for affection and intimacy. Christian leaders are called to live the Incarnation, that is to live in the body—not only in the their own bodies but also in the corporate body of the community, and to discover there the presence of the Holy Spirit.”
— From Popularity to Ministry, p.48

“Ministers and priests are also called to be full members of their communities, are accountable to them and need their affection and support, and are called to minister with their whole being, including their wounded selves.”
— From Popularity to Ministry, p.49

(He goes on here to talk about ministers and priests needing a truly safe place to share with people who do not need them. This is where some of the tension comes in, right. Most ministers and priests use this tension to disconnect themselves and have a good “professional distance” from their parish. I think that can’t be the best and only option. Thoughts?)

“I am also getting in touch with the mystery that leadership, for a large part, means to be led.”
— From Leading to Being Led, p.57
(And he isn’t simply spiritualizing and talking about being led by Jesus. That’s part of it be even the leader needs to let their community lead them from time to time.)

“The temptation to consider power an apt instrument fro proclamation of the Gospel is the greatest of all.”
— From Leading to Being Led, p.58

(I think of the recent implosion of a certain mega church illustrated this perfectly.)

“…we always see that a major cause of rupture is the power exercised by those who claim to be followers of the poor and powerless Jesus.
What makes the temptation of power so seemingly irresistible? Maybe it is that power offers an easy substitute for the hard task of love.”
— From Leading to Being Led, p.59

“Here we touch the most important quality of Christian leadership in the future. It is not a leadership of power and control, but a leadership of powerlessness and humility in which the suffering servant of God, Jesus Christ, is make manifest. I, obviously, am not speaking about a psychologically weak leadership in which the Christian leader is simply the passive victim of the manipulations of his milieu. No, I am speaking of a leadership in which power is constantly abandoned in favor of love. It is true spiritual leadership Powerlessness and humility in the spiritual life do not refer to people who have no spine and who let everyone else make decisions for them. They refer to people who are so deeply in love with Jesus that they are ready to follow him wherever he guides them, always trusting that, with him, they will find life and find it abundantly.”
— From Leading to Being Led, p.63-64

“Wealth and riches prevent us from truly discerning the way of Jesus. Paul writes to Timothy: ‘People who long to be rich are a pretty to trail; they get trapped into all sorts of foolish and harmful ambitions which plunge people into ruin and destruction’ (1 Tim. 6:9).

“If there is any hope for the Church in the future, it will be hope for a poor Church in which its leaders are willing to be led.”
— From Leading to Being Led, p.64

“The Christian leaders of the future have to be theologians, persons who know the heart of God and are trained—through prayer, study, and careful analysis—to manifest the diving event of God’s saving work in the midst of the many seemingly random events of their time.”
— From Leading to Being Led, p.68

(I would completely agree with this but might also point out I don’t think this necessarily means a seminary degree or Phd. It might, but it might not.)

“I leave you with the image of the leader with outstretched hands, who chooses a life of downward mobility. It is the image of the praying leader, the vulnerable leader, and the trusting leader. May that image fill your hearts with hope, courage, and confidence as you anticipate the next century.”

(I typed up all these quotes. There may be some typos, I did it fast! Go pick up the book to get the official goods!)



A conversation partner | Wesley & Student Ministry


A conversation partner | Wesley & Student Ministry
(a book review)

A fellow I crossed paths with quite a few years ago recently contacted me about reviewing a book he wrote on student ministry and John Wesley. My first thoughts was… I like student ministry, I like John Wesley and I really like free books! SURE!
Now I guess I should confess that it wasn’t all that recently. I’m a bit behind on writing this little ditty here. Sorry Jeremy! But the good news… the book is available, go buy a few copies!!! Tell em’ Erik sent you.

So here’s the review…

Lost_Soul_YMTo have a conversation partner who helps you think through how what you believe shapes what you do is an extremely value thing. Youth pastors often get pretty stuck in the rut of just making it happen; programs, events, small groups, mission trips and a million other things. I speak as one such youth pastor. Often the why can get buried in dust kicked up by the doing. To have a few people that are continually calling you back to the why of ministry is really important. In this this book Jeremy is offering himself to fill a bit of that space for anyone who has been shaped by the beauty and truth of John Wesley’s theological contribution. (And to say practical theology is redundant but if you’re into Wesley much you already know that.

Bottom line, if you like Wesley and if you work with students you’ll like this book. So pick up a few copies and let Jeremy lead your student ministry staff and volunteers in a conversation about the real Wesleyan soul of student ministry!

That was my Amazon review, I would add that I especially enjoyed a couple of the grace sections. To talk about how prevenient grace and the means of grace can and should be a reminder that God is always and already at work, taking pressure off youth workers and rather inviting us to create spaces and places for that grace to be encountered. I love the vision and invitation we get from Wesley’s understanding of Grace and Jeremy helps us remember that we are simply participating in the grace that is always and already wooing and working on all of us.

I do think there were a couple chapters where he was stretching it a bit or maybe trying a little to hard. His contribution about John Wesley’s class meetings and bands is good but not unique. I would love some more source material and resources around this.  But no doubt thinking about how Wesley structured his ministry is helpful for the church and specifically youth ministry. And the book ended strong as well. The missional nature of Wesley’s theology, the constant impulse to be on the go alongside God’s grace, to be living in a way that is for the world is strong and Jeremy does well at highlighting that this and challenging the youth worker to embrace this.

My cirque is minimal, this is a good book. At first read I was bit unsure of the title but I get, I think. The soul is all about our desires and impulse, it’s about what is deep, at the center of a person. The soul (and I would add the heart, if we were speaking in OT terms) is root of all our actions.  My soul often feels buried by my to-do list. This book and John Wesley are both great partners in caring for the soul as we participate in the mission of God for the sake of the world.

You can pick up the book here.
And read more about the author, Jeremy Steele here. Or read his tweets. Or his blog.



Why you should quit The Ministry…


jesus34.jpg.w300h409I have a friend who is a full-time pastor, associate actually but probably does more than his Sr. pastor, he’s good! But I think he should quit his job and get out of ministry. Let me tell you why.

Another guy I know, he’s a priest at a local parish and is experiencing what a lot of us “professional Christians” experience, the inability to really dig in and share life with people. We were talking about his community group and he isn’t sure he can do the small group thing because there is an expectation that he would have the answers. There is also probably a bit of a compulsion to give the “right” answer if the wrong ones are being tossed about. This isn’t uncommon, i’ve felt it and so have many of my friends who are pastors and preachers.

Now maybe you could still get a pay check form the church. Wear the collar and park in the clergy space at the hospital (there are some perks we don’t want to give up right!) But maybe we need to quit doing ministry and just start sharing life with people. To start living in a way that should be standard for all Christians not just those that get paid for ministry. Maybe we should only do things as professional ministers that we would also do as professional bike messengers or professional lawyers or professional… you fill in the blank. If you wouldn’t do it when you weren’t getting paid, don’t do it JUST because you are.

This is probably idealistic. Maybe there are things that are apart of any job as a professional that you’d hate but can’t help, things you have to do. Does anybody love every aspect of their occupation? If so, teach me your ways. So i’m not saying this is some hard and fast rule but what I am trying to get at is what I see in my friend and if I were honest, it’s what I see in myself all to often. I can be a horrible friend, a really crappy neighbor but when it’s my job or when i’m “ministering” i’m all over it. If you’re going to be a crap friend to your friends don’t act like your a good friend to the people you’re getting “paid” to be a friends to.

The goal in quitting ministry is to have the ability to actually live life with people and let ministry happen as it should for all of us, no matter how we get paid, you might even still get a check from the church and preach a message on Sundays. If we can find ways to shift our professional mentality I really think that our status as simply authentic human beings, people who has quit ministry will begin to shape how we actually share life with people. It will shape the conversations we have, the dinners we go to, the beers we drink and the games we attend. All these things and more might all be a bit more natural as they flow from life instead of being contrived via a job.

“So what do you do?”
“Oh, i’m i just a dude. I happen to work at a church though.”


So, do you get paid by a church? How have you felt this dilemma? Or have you?

I think an interesting part of this conversation could be to flesh out a theology of the priesthood of believes and how the professional priest fits into this community of priests that we all are called to belong to. I’m sure there are some good resources on this, any suggestions?

(These few icons and the one above inspire me as I think about the priesthood of all believer and the great cloud of witnesses the scriptures talk about.)
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Some thoughts on Humility…


I had a conversation today with a good friend who was approaching the subject of humility pretty standardly. My brain shouted, maybe there is something else going on here. It there another angle to approach the idea of humility? What is it really? How did Christ do humility?

So here is my stream of conscience…

What kind of “humility-ies” are there?

False humility  — Negative humility — No humility = Pride & arrogance

On top of this what does it really mean to actually be humble?

“He humbled himself and became obedient to the point of death…”
Philippians 2:8

HUMBLE – – –
* having or showing a modest or low estimate of one’s own importance.
* of low social, administrative, or political rank: she came from a humble, unprivileged background.
* of modest pretensions or dimensions.

Those are from the dictionary. I think the first definition is on track to what i’m thinking but not fully. Humility is to not think of oneself as too good or above. Maybe to not think things are beneath you. But the inverse is also true, to not think things are above you is an aspect of humility, although not as clearly in the common definition.

So let’s dig in…

It doesn’t seem like true humility is a lack of confidence or something along those lines. Rather, maybe it’s closer to an acute awareness of ones actual self, who you really are, your true self as Richard Rohr might say. Then, living so confidently in that true self that you can can serve and even die for that which you believe or feel called to because you are not better or you are not unqualified to fully live into your true self and your true calling.

There is an aspect of humility that is being OK with taking on a lower position than you might actually be worthy of or could occupy normally but it’s the confidence in ones true self, that what you do, even if its dying, won’t affect who your are, your actual worth that intrigues me about the humble heart.

Some times one needs to be humbled. Might this be because the heart is fighting for a higher, more prestigious place instead of being ok and finding joy and confidence in the true self? When you serve and / or when you are lead, which for the humble — the ultimately confident one, might be close to the same thing, you are confident, ok in who you are and the position you find yourself in… you are humble.

So the inverse could also be true. The one who lacks confidence and does nothing but work in lowly positions isn’t necessarily humble. They may to need to be humbled. To take on or be given a higher position, realizing their confidence comes from who they really are. To be leading / serving those whom you might feel inadequate to lead / serve is to be humbled by the grace and provision of a God who desire for you to be ultimately confident in who he has created for you to be and the opportunities he has given you. No matter the circumstances. For one to say, as they receive an award, “It is humbling to be given this award in a room of my most talented peers,” may be experiencing this very kind of acceding humility. For that humility to be honest and not empty there must be a step into confidence and also an avoidance of pride. At least for “humble” to be the word we use for this story.

I think Jesus was so ultimately confident in who he was, in his true self that he could lead without arrogance and he could serve, even die without grasping to his rights and privileges. Maybe this is the snapshot of of biblical, christological humility. An ultimately confident self, not swayed to maintain or grasp for power and prestige or live below who he was created to be, the crucified one.

I don’t know, just some thoughts. I’ve always wanted to be humble in the way Jesus was humble. But there always seemed to be something dishonest about hanging my head low and saying “oh, it’s nothing” or “oh, you know, it wasn’t me, it was God” or something like that when i was complimented for something i did well.  The most honest thing i have found to do is to humbly saying thank you. I am not ultimately confident in my self or even in who God has made me to be but my hope is that I am on a journey of learning the art of living, living as my true self and confident in that because it’s who God has created me to be.

Philippians 2:5-11

5 Let the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus,

6 who, though he was in the form of God,
did not regard equality with God
as something to be exploited,

7 but emptied himself,
taking the form of a slave,
being born in human likeness.
And being found in human form,

8 he humbled himself
and became obedient to the point of death—
even death on a cross.

9 Therefore God also highly exalted him
and gave him the name
that is above every name,

10 so that at the name of Jesus
every knee should bend,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,

11 and every tongue should confess
that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.

I think Richard Rohr audio teaching entitled The Art of Letting Go would be a great connection to this conversation and idea. Check it out on Audible.




Am I Dangerous Enough // Dietrich Bonhoeffer


I just finished listening to the biography of Dietrich Bonhoeffer. It was inspiring on many levels; intellectually, spiritually and on a praxis level.

Just to real how committed and intelligent Bonhoeffer was is pretty amazing. I often wish i was smarter but then i hear about a guy like Bonhoeffer and it makes me realize just how much smarter i wish i was. He was seriously committed to learning and growing and participating in intellectual spiritual conversations and growth. He did this even when his life took him the way of the pastor rather than the academic. One thing i have attempted to do every since college has been to always be reading something a little on the headier side. I’m reading a book by Andreas Andreopoulos on the Transfiguration right now. Not academic but a little beefier than your average Christian pop-culture book (i’m reading a couple of those as well). But yea, Bonhoeffer inspires in this way.

Often pastors and academics get smart and theologically robust in their thinking but lose the personal edge to their salvation. Bonhoeffer was far from this. Despite his intellect he engaged in the pursuit of God’s will for his life in a truly inspiring way. Each major decision in his life was thought over and prayed about. It wasn’t a shallow evangelical pursuit of God’s will but rather a robust, thoughtful pursuit of what and where God was leading him. I want that in my own own life. Not to worry over the parking spot i pick but also not assuming God inspired my pick of jobs or destinations when i never even stopped to pray and seek His help.

And praxis. This is putting your faith into action. Not letting blanket morals and standards govern your life but instead engaging God in a real world, letting him form thoughts and opinions and ultimately letting God shape and form all the functions and living of your life. Your living actually being shaped by the living, resurrected Christ, this is the most impressive characteristic of Bonhoeffer.

One of the questions i began to think about toward the end of the book was this, “Am i dangerous enough?” Bonhoeffer was sidetracked and eventually killed because he was dangerous to the evil in his world. His life, ministry, preaching, living and service was all a dangerous participation in the Kingdom of God. Every day he lived and every breath he breathed was a furthering of God’s kingdom here on Earth. To the evil in our world Dietrich Bonhoeffer was a massively dangerous man. I’m not that dangerous. That kind makes me sad. It challenges me to think about how i can, even if in little ways be dangerous to the evil in my world. Maybe it’s the evil of consumerism,  selfishness, nationalism or business. There are evils i could be dangerous to but most times i fail. I want to find ways, small and big to be more dangerous as i participate in the prayer “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.”

Here are a few of the things i marked / noted as i was listening to this great book…

“Kierkegaard says, ‘man belongs either to the or the moral or the artistic type.’ But he did not know of this house (the Bonhoeffer house) because it formed a harmony of both.” [ Chapter 2 ]

Bonhoeffer disagreed with one of his more liberal friends but appreciate his pursuit of truth. “Anyone on the side of truth was a compatriot to be lauded.” This generous theology is one that i love and one that isn’t found often in the American church. Bonhoeffer thought you should be able to argue and differ both civilly and productively in the pursuit of God. I agree. [ Chapter 8 ]

“I pray that God will give me the strength not to take up a weapons.” Some people see Bonhoeffer as a pacifist and other don’t. But it was his extremely nuanced ethics that keep him from these categories. And it was statements like this that push him into the category of the non-violent for sure. [ Section 2 chapter 7 — Chapter 21 ]

“I think i am right in saying i will only achieve true inner clarity and honesty by really starting to take The Sermon on the Mount seriously. Here alone is the force that can blow this idiocy sky high like fireworks, leaving only a few burned out shells behind.  The restoration of the church must surely depend on a new kind of monasticism, which has nothing in common with the old but a life of uncompromising discipleship, following Christ according to The Sermon on the Mount. I believe the time has come to gather people together to do this.” Yea, that’s just good! [ Section 2 chapter 8 — Chapter 22 ]

“Theological work and real pastoral fellowship can only grow in a life that is governed by gathering around the Word morning and evening and by fixed times of prayer. Do not try and make the bible relevant, it’s relevance is axiomatic, do no defend Gods Word but testify to it. Trust to the Word.” [ Section 2 chapter 9 — Chapter 23 ]
I just think it was really cool that as he grew and thought through things he turned to a more set and liturgical way of doing things. Fixed hours of prayer and regular bible study individually and corporately. This is why his work – Life Together is so compelling.

Bonhoeffer had a friend and confessor. He trusted this person to criticize and shape his theological ideas and to share his inmost struggles. They prayed together and worshiped together daily. I guess i just think this is pretty amazing, to have a person you so throughly trust and are connected to. Many people are scared of this kind of intimate relationship. I pray i would find a person to whom i would connect with and be able to open up to in such a honest way. I think we should all want it. [ He talk about this in Section 3 chapter 2 ]

I have a few other book marks i could share but this post it long enough so this will do for now. It’s a really great book. Bonhoeffer was a really great man. It’s a pretty huge book, over 30 hours of audio but worth every minute!

Grace and peace



Holiness as being…


I read the below paragraph a week or so ago and loved it! It also got me thinking about holiness, something i used to do, probably too much and something i now do, probably not enough. I think it’s an important topic and one we would all do well to think about and live out a bit more. I’ll share what i read below and then i share some more thoughts on holiness in the next few days.


HOLINESS IS at play when people draw attention to the truth of God simply by being …

Saint Francis of Assisi took a novice out for a day of preaching the gospel. As they left Assisi, they helped a farmer move his cart; down the road they talked with a merchant and listened to his problems; around noon they shared their meal with a hungry beggar; soon after luHoliness as being… HOLINESS IS at play when people draw attention to the truth of God simply by being … Saint Francis of Assisi took a novice out for a day of preaching the gospel. As they left Assisi, they helped a farmer move his cart; down the road they talked with a merchant and listened to his problems; around noon they shared their meal with a hungry beggar; soon after lunch they prayed with a sick woman; on their way back, they helped a woman carry her heavy load. When they returned to the monastery at dark, the novice commented that the day was gone and they hadn’t preached to anyone. “My son,” Francis responded, “we’ve been sharing the gospel all day long.” Derek Maul
10 Life-Charged Words nch they prayed with a sick woman; on their way back, they helped a woman carry her heavy load. When they returned to the monastery at dark, the novice commented that the day was gone and they hadn’t preached to anyone. “My son,” Francis responded, “we’ve been sharing the gospel all day long.”

Derek Maul, 
10 Life-Charged Words
 I ran across this story in one of the Upper Room devotional email, worth a look.)  



Ben Rector—Suburban prayers // Music Monday 20.0 [ tuesday edition ]


I’ve been listening to this song on repeat today,
a suburban prayer of sorts by Ben Rector…

“I want to live until i die
don’t let the devil bury me alive
when my heart stops let me go home
don’t let the suburbs kill my heart and soul.”

Along with thinking about Peter Rollings talking about how we all make “ironic gestures.”

So listening to this song while i sit at St. Starbuck with the queen of the suburbs, a very ironic gesture if you ask me. Thinking, praying and wondering  how i live a less ironic kind of life.





Palm Sunday


To begin with celebration and adoration of Jesus, the “Hosanna in the highest!” “Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!” And then to swiftly move toward denial and distain, shouts of “crucify him.”

This is Palm Sunday. And this is Holy Week.
This is also our story. At least if your honest it is.

I once heard Peter Rollins, an author and theologian tell a story about being asked if he affirmed or denied in the resurrection of Jesus. His response was powerful. I actually found it on youtube, check it out…

It’s true right, we all deny the resurrection and we all, WAY to often yell with our lives “crucify him.” Often right after we have publicly ushered him in as savior, yelling “Hosanna.”

God forgive me and fill me with your grace and spirit so that i might die with you and to my selfish denial of you. By your grace enable me to not just affirm or believe in your resurrection but participate in it.

This is the journey of Holy Week. 
May we follow Jesus to the cross, so that we my participate in his resurrection.



Beauty & Worship // Space & Values…


The church values beauty and creativity because God values these things, right? Maybe it’s because God IS beauty and creativity so when we live fully as we were created to live, made in his image and filled with this spirit, when we embrace beauty and creativity we are participating in the life of God. Maybe it’s something like that.

I think in our worship we often forget this kind of stuff these days.

Our buildings are big square office boxes next to other office boxes. Even when we spend LOTS of money on a building it probably just looks like the school down the street. Our art… wait, we don’t really do art anymore. Our music is often times mimics of a pop culture with very little redemptive imagination.

Mostly we come to worship / sing a few songs about Jesus and listen to a message about Jesus, we don’t value much else. And it better not last much longer than an hour… after all, we have things to do.

Well on a night like tonight i remember the value of sacred music and sacred spaces. I think of the good, the true and the beautiful and how the church has always valued these things.

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Don’t get me wrong, i struggle with the amount of money that is spent on some church buildings and chapels, i personally don’t put a high value on appearances (in some ways), on pomp and circumstance, and on flashy kinds of things. I live in a tension when it comes to these things. I see value in space and beauty and creativity… but i also like low key, come as you are environments offered by many churches these days.

Screen Shot 2011-12-05 at 10.28.34 AMI’m not sure i like one over the other, i probably prefer beauty to bland but a mix of the 2… i guess.

I do know when i come to a night of worship at a church like the one i am privileged to work and worship at i remember that historically the Church has valued beauty and creativity and has lead the way in sharing it, often through architecture and art. I definitely think the church, in some ways, needs to regain that place in the world.

What do you think?
How do we reclaim space? Especially when it comes to worship and buildings / architecture… or does it matter?

Do we care about beauty or art or creativity? What does this look like as communities of faith if we say we do value these things?

Is it possible to value mission and beauty at the same time? (i’m thinking of the argument, “we could have spent that money on the mission field instead of a building.”

Alright, enough rambling.

My wife and i had an awesome night of enjoying Christmas music in a beautiful building created for worshiping God. It was great and these are some of my rambling thoughts at 1 in the morning.